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Name: Ian
Country: United States
Birthday: 10/14/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Playing Dystopia, looking stuff up on Wikipedia, and thinking stuff up in my head.
And my biggest hobby is Rping on the Snafu forums.
Expertise: Doing nothing.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
ICQ:  231102708
Yahoo:  Alex_De_Ghost
Member Since:
9/25/2005
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| Woo. Wonderful luck. I get a huge fever, a headache the size of a hippo, and bad breath able to kill undead right on the end of the school year. Yay for random illness striking at the most inopportune times. ANY other time in the school year and it would of been fine. Right now, I can'T make up late work, so I'm somewhat screwed. And now I have a definite urge to puke on this computer.
Hopefully that, and my other unshared problem clear up by at least Sunday. If I miss anything next week, I'm TOTALLY screwed when it comes to everything. Not so bad this week.
As for me? At home, teaching my mom new games and trying not to want to play games. Its hard, but it makes my head hurt so I prefer NOT to play games. Except small games and such. PLay some sudoko to give my brain something to do at times. After all, the TV and books are just passive experiences. Doing something that needs thought and such is far more intriguing.
I hope I didn't infect anyone during the days that I was at school after I caught the disease. I don't know when, but it definitely started on Monday. So yah...
Anyways, Good day and good luck from your old pal, MD.
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| Greatness. I hate it when my history teacher assigns things to us, yet assigns no due date. I cannot work like that unless I CARE about something. So I have to do all my research and such during this weekend to get it in on time. Do not look forward to that. Hopefully it'll be a lot less painful then I suppose it to be.
Already missed enough assignments this week after a 'bout with depression last week. This week, after Monday, has gone better but still. Been TOO fucking busy afterschool. WHY DO I HAVE TENNIS? I COULD HAVE DONE RESEARCH! NO! NOW I HAVE LOST TIME AND LOTS OF EXTRA ANGER TO DEAL WITH!
So I can't do anything really... So annoying really. I'm crippled for another week for doing damn near anything worthwhile, even if this week has been so much better in some ways.
YET SUCKS IN OTHERS!
Signing off...
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| *Sighs* Since things are just going badly, need somewhere to vent occasionally. Eh, this is perfect. Nobody listens, yet the whole world can see. Ain't that grand?
Hmmm... So it was supposed to be warm eh? Nothing but cold it has been this April. Wierd one isn't it? We had snow today, though nothing that'd stay. Just flurries. Turned to rain and was born from the rain.
Days have been long and dull. No one to console my heart in these troubled times. *Sighs* Just MD... hard to handle sometimes when you've found completeness and lose it. Can't ask parents and only a small few understand the enormity of which I speak. Solace comes in the forms of books and games, but the relief is temporary and fleeting. I may laugh one time or another, but the melancholy hurts. Not much worse then I was before, probably better, but now... Just kind of a depressed state.
Bah... Earthbound. One high point in my life. Completed it. Great RPG, everyone should try it. Personal fav from the SNES. and Yes, I've played Chrono Trigger. Shut up about it. And do not mention FF around me. Random battles make me shudder.
Other then that and beating Freespace 2 (Finally), not much has been happening except dragging myself through the long days.
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| Wait, did I say lovely? I hate spring. Only consolation is that it starts with copious rain storms. Then it gets hot. Then I have to sit inside at the AC all day, delicately balancing the little pointer so I don't piss off my parents, yet won't die of heat stroke.
Hmm... Yeah, buggery time of year for me... and alls... SO, why am I posting again?
Because when I just think things are picking up, they get worse. Exactly. Spring, wisdom teeth removed, Work, and now return to school. Lovely stuff...Hmm, plus some other lovely bits of things happening. And lovely I mean it sarcastically.
I want to go back to the good old days with legos....
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| I just need somewhere to stand up and say it to the world. Here is probably best, since the world can easily miss me here even though the world can see it. Still...
Love is such a wonderful emotion. I thought I'd never know it. I thought I'd just be someone who'd just focus on material objectives. But now everything seems so much more wonderful. Even if it will take a long time for it to come to fruition and may not even work out in the end... I don't care. I love her. I want everything for her to go well. I want to be with her. It just seems so absurd but so right when I think about it all.
When I look back, it almost seems an impossible journey. We hated each other when we first met. But I'm glad neither of us hold grudges even if the memories remain. Ah... It is just so wonderful. It was a long time coming, certainly, but it had been done perhaps at the best time and the best time had forced it out. I doubt without that kind of shove I had on Monday I could of admitted it to anyone. Now, though, I just feel so complete with admitting it.
The cyborg sheds apathy.
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